I’ve always said I would start a photography blog.
Every semester it’s been something on my ‘To Do’ list that I never got to. I guess now is as good a time as any.
I graduate college in a month, and I’m not sure what’s going to happen after that. It will be the first time in my life where I haven’t had a plan, where there is no predetermined next step. It’s both scary and exhilarating to have that stretch out in front of you.
There are a lot of things I want to talk about. My fear of graduation, but also the excitement it brings. My ever-present dissatisfaction with what I shoot and the breakthroughs I’ve made lately. What it means to me to be a photojournalist, and why I continue in this field despite the challenges it presents.
But these are heavy topics, and they would be best saved for future posts. I’m going to try and follow the model of the blogs I like the most – a few pictures of recent work, with a little bit about what is on my mind.
Tonight I edited a portfolio for a young photographer who will be entering a competition that I won two years ago, and it reminded me of where I used to be. I thought about how far I’ve come since then, and what that competition meant to me.
Winning the Greg Crowder Award at Cronkite was the first time I woke up and thought, ‘I could really do this.’ As I looked over this photographer’s work, I remember my own hesitation when I put together my entry. I remember thinking I would never get it.
That award taught me to sit up and pay attention. Being self-taught, it was an affirmation that I was on the right track and that people appreciated my work.
Unfortunately I think I got a little bit comfortable after that, and I didn’t push my photography as hard as I should have. I’ve learned a lot in the last semester or two about how I want to shoot, but it’s going to take a while to get there.
These things don’t happen overnight, I suppose. I am looking forward to seeing where this blog takes me.